Too Deep

It’s been awhile.
Since I could take a deep breath without immediately gasping for air like my panic attacks.
Since I could come into my own place and feel comfort instead of sharp knives in my chest.
Since I could look at another happy family and accept that we are going to be okay.

It’s been awhile.
Since I fantasized about anyone else.
Since I felt free.
Since I felt full control of my own mind, body, and emotions.

It’s been awhile.
Since I could enjoy my own time to write.
Since I could like my own interests in life without upsetting you.
Since I could look how I want with my makeup and clothing.
Since I could be me without worrying about consequences.

Don’t let yourself go thinking you are a saint. Don’t stay just to get put into a position where you can’t let go. Don’t look into that mirror just to see through someone else’s eyes. Don’t listen to their romantic little alibi’s.
Don’t let yourself be treated less than you actually deserve.

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